Open My Eyes

Summery: A rumor posted in the BBS gets Balmung thinking about his failing relationship with Kamui and his hidden love for Reki. Oneshot. Kind of long. Based off the manga.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything from the manga .hack. But wouldn't it be cool to have a game like that.

Pairing(s): Balmung/Reki.

Warning: Yaoi/SLASH (whatever) OOCness (first .hack/DUSK fic people) and some swearing.

Rating: M

Authoress' Greeting: I realize this isn't the correct .hack category, but there isn't one for Legend of the Twilight, and fanfiction are taking longer than usual to put it up. So it'll stay here (moved from the misc section) for the moment. The misc section... who goes there anyway.

.hack / The Legend of the Twilight Bracelet (Or .hack/DUSK) is such a good manga. The anime unfortunately wasn't good at all. The plot was different. Zelfi wasn't even in it. Zelfi! (clears throat) Anyway. Reki is my favorite character. And his friendship with Balmung is adorable. And what kind of fangirl would I be if I didn't “alter” said friendship into a passionate sexual boy love?

In the anime it was implied that Balmung and Kamui where an item. Rubbish I tell you. I don't like Kamui much, she's never done anything to *make* anyone like her... So I'm going to be... not nice to her. Eh heh heh heh. So Kamui fans beware.

Some of this fic will be placed in the real world. I dunno why. It appeals to me. I mean, you NEVER get to see them do normal things. But don't worry, Shugo and crew will make an appearance.

When Balmung says “you”, he's referring to Reki.

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We argue a lot and don't share the same beliefs. Sometimes I wonder why we're in a relationship at all. She frustrates me and picks fights. So arrogant and sure of herself. Always so sure that what she does is just and right.

I don't think so. I've never thought so. Well... I did once, which is when we started dating. But Kite showed me onto the right path and I've been on that path for five years. Kamui doesn't want to believe that what she and her “Green Knights” do is unfair and cruel.

Like I said. I don't know why I'm still dating her. You seem to feel the need to remind me every chance you get. I brush it off and change the subject. But you know better.

Reki you see right through my attempts to hide it, and you don't understand why I put up with her.

Well... I don't know either.

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“A ball, like... one of those things where it's all dancing and fancy dress?” you ask in slight confusion.

I nod and turn around to face you. You're hugging your data book to your chest and have one fine eyebrow raised. Quite the trade mark look for you Reki.

“Yes a ball. I thought it might be fun. We do so many festivals I thought it was time for a change.” I respond cheerfully.

You stare at me for a moment. Greens eyes piercing and your eyebrows lower.

“I see. What's the catch?” you dead-pan.

“Catch?”

“Yes sir, catch. You always have some... strange catch to all of your events. What is it this time?”

“Reki, must you think so lowly of me?” You don't reply, only giving me a Look, so I continue. “There is no catch. It's just an innocent fancy dress ball.” I explain. Pointing to a screen with the invitation of said ball on it. I'm still writing it. “See?”

You look over my shoulder, a feat which you normally wouldn't achieve, being as small as you are. But I'm sitting down and you are kneeling behind me. I wait as you read the page. One slender hand on my shoulder to steady yourself. While your attention is focused on something else, I give myself some time to study your hands. Something I have found I'm quite... obsessed with.

They're so small and thin. It's not surprising. I have seen how people react to you when they first meet you in “The World”. Before you speak, most players mistake you for a girl. (1) You constantly find it annoying, though I find it quite amusing. But back to your hands.

They're really quite feminine, attractive. Your real hands are like this as well. Small, slender and soft. I sometimes wonder what it would be like to be touched by those hands. What it would be like to...

“You've miss spelled a few words.” you say suddenly. Breaking me out of my thoughts.

I hide a blush and look back at the transparent page before me and the word you're pointing to. Puchiguso. Ah... I've spelled it Pushiguso, a typo. I fix it and the other words you point out.

“So... it'll be a fancy dress ball.” you say, sitting down next to me and tucking your robes under you. “There is no limit to the costumes?”

“No. And you don't need to bring a date either.”

“What a relief. The date rule is pathetic. At least, I've always thought so. I mean, what if you don't have a date? It's hard for everyone to get one and since you spring these things an hour or so before the event, it's pretty hard to find one.” you babble. Getting worked up in your rant.

I smile again.

“Reki, your babbling.” I point out, cutting you off and you blush, embarrassed. You're such a proper little thing, you get flustered so easily. “That's what I thought also. So you don't need to bring a date, only if you really want to.” I stand up and you follow suit. Your reddish-brown robes flowing out neatly around you.

I open my mouth to give you your orders, but you cut me off with a sort of scoff/sigh and tuck your book under one arm.

“I'll get this news out right away Mr Balmung. I suppose you have some important thing to go to right away?. As usual. I'll take care of everything.”

My smile never falters.

“I do actually. I'm going to see Kamui. We have a date today.”

Your lips turn down into a frown and you look at me in a pitying, yet cross manner.

“I don't know why you put up with her. She's not good for you. Always ruining your hard work and arguing with you.”

I sigh and nod slowly. I was expecting you to say that. You've never approved of my relationship with Kamui. And I suppose you have good reason not to. Hardly anyone likes the woman and half the time even I can't stand her. The relationship doesn't make me happy and I spend more time complaining about her then anything else. But I get lonely and she's just... there. Sounds cruel I know, but it's the truth. Besides, who else do I have?

“Balmung...” you start, frown deepening and you reach out to lay a hand on my arm.

“Reki I kno-”

“Balmung!” a deep, yet female voice cuts me off. That seems to be happening a lot today. I really do like finishing my sentences. Reki and I turn as one to face a cross Kamui, though when has there ever been a time when she didn't look pissed off? You pull your hand back.

She glares at me. I return her stare, though without the daggers. You clear your throat, successfully bringing both of our attention to you. Though I'm sure you only want mine. You've displayed enough dis-like toward Kamui to get the point that you hate her across.

Kamui regards you with a pompous gaze, looking her nose down at you. You ignore her, and talk directly to me.

“I see you have... important matters to attend to, so I'll be taking my leave. I'll have the event ready Mr Balmung.”

I smile at you warmly and you shyly return it.

“I have complete faith in you Reki. I'll see you later.”

“Yes sir.” And you disappear with a slight bow, in a column yellow teleport rings.

Once gone I turn to Kamui, who looks more annoyed then she did when she arrived a few minutes ago. I wonder why. I don't think I'll ever figure women out. They are too much of a puzzle. Her especially.

“What did you want Kamui?” I ask finally, breaking the long silence between us.

She huffs and crosses her arms, her spear nursed in the crook of one elbow.

“What do you mean 'What do you want.' We agreed to meet today. And you where late. 10 minutes late to be exact. So I came looking for you.” she said, ruby red lips curling up in a snarl.

“Kamui, my apologies. But I was busy organizing my new event. A-”

“With that little lackey of yours no doubt.” she snarks.

“Lackey?” I ask, puzzled by the term. Then it hits me. “Oh, you mean Reki. Of course, he is my assistant. Like Maki is yours. What's so wrong with him helping me?”

She sucks hard at her gums.

“Nothing. Anyway, I thought we where meant to go out today?”

Changing the subject. She must feel uncomfortable talking about Reki or something. I dismiss it and smile in what I hope is a charming manner.

“Yes we are. I was thinking we could go out for lunch.”

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We had another fight. Which doesn't surprise me at all. We fight every time we're within three feet of eachother.

I think back to it as I place the head set on my desk. I've logged out for a while, to have something to eat before the ball this evening. A wise choice, my stomach feels like it's eating itself.

We fought about Reki. Something that has never happened before. We where sitting in a small café, talking about random things. When Kamui suddenly brought my assistant up. For no apparent reason at all and started insulting him. Calling him a whore, among other things.

I of course, defended him. Reki was the closet person to me and I trusted him above all others. I wasn't about to let Kamui of all people call him such vile names. He hadn't done anything to her.

It turned out there was a rumor going about the message boards that he and I where having some sort of... secret affair. Some people had even given him a nick name. Balmung little bitch. Kamui took the rumors to heart and started accusing me of cheating. I calmed her down to an extent, which took a good hour and a half. Reassuring her that nothing was going on between Reki and myself. She didn't believe me and left in a huff.

I stand at the water cooler in the office corridor. Not bothering to go down to the employee café just yet. Going over the rumor in my head. After Kamui left I visited the message board that had the thread about my “relationship” with Reki on it. Reading the posts. More than half the people posting where happy and excited about the possibility that I was secretly dating my subordinate. The other half where either against it, or not really interested.

But the idea itself. The idea that we could date had me thinking. Could Reki and I really have a relationship together? The idea was nothing new. I had been thinking about it for months now, but had shoved the thoughts to the back of my mind. I was already dating someone after all. But still, Reki was beautiful and we got on fabulously.

I pushed myself off the wall and started for the elevator. Thoughts and... images of Reki stuck in my head. I mustn't have been watching where I was going, because I ran into someone. Almost knocking them to the carpet. I started to apologize when my eyes met hazel ones.

“Mr Balmung, you really shouldn't day dream while walking.”

You're standing in front of me. Smiling coyly.

“Sorry Reki, I was thinking about something. Are you alright?”

“Fine. How was your date?” you ask as the lift doors open and we step in. It's empty, good.

I sigh and put my hands behind my head. Threading my fingers into my blond hair.

“Not good.” I reply. “We had another fight.”

You frown and look at me in mild sympathy.

“What about this time?”

“Nothing...” I can't tell you what we fought about, you might take it the wrong way. “It was nothing.”

“People say it was about me.” you state matter-of-factly. And the doors open and you step out. I follow, shocked.

“Pardon?”

You smile slightly and fall into step beside me.

“Word travels fast in “The World”. You should know that. And next time you might want to argue in a more privet setting. I received an email from Shugo not too long ago. He said he'd overheard someone saying you and Kamui where fighting about me and some rumor on the BBS.”

Uh oh.

“I checked said rumor out.” you blush, but smirk anyway. “I knew Kamui wasn't all that bright. But I never knew she'd be foolish enough to believe a rumor posted by someone who has never even seen us before.” you say. “The player who started the rumor belongs to the Spanish server. They're known for starting rumors in their own forums and causing trouble. They've never even seen us before, most people don't even know who I am. They just heard our names and wanted to cause a stir.”

“Oh... what did you do about the thread?”

“I left it as it was. It's not doing anyone any harm. Rumors aren't against the rules.”

We enter the café and head for the fridge. I pick out a coke and you take an iced coffee. As we order our food and pay for the drinks. I chance a glance at you. You look normal enough, in a good mood. But I can tell you're brooding. You're tapping your foot and I've known you long enough to know that you only do that when brooding.

We sit down and I chance my luck and ask your opinion on the rumor itself. About... you and I. You blush and look at your cake.

“Oh ah... I'm not mad if that's what you want to know. It's just a silly rumor.” you say, but I don't believe you.

“I don't believe you.” I say, and you look up at me. I stare back challengingly. “I know when you're lying Reki.”

You look back at the chocolate cake.

“Well what about you. What do you think about it?” it's said softly and it seems like your afraid of my answer.

“It's nonsense. Just a rumor, as you say. I don't know why Kamui took it so seriously, none of it's true.”

My response is followed by a long silence. I start to eat, remembering what I'd come down here for. When you stand up, taking me and some of the people around us by surprise.

“I... I should go.” you say hurriedly. “The ball starts in a few hours and I need to do some errands. I'll see you there.”

I stare after you as you leave, weaving through tables and rushing out of the doors, knocking a few people out of your way. Your cake laying forgotten on the plate. Untouched. I look at it.

“Did I say something?”

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The ball started a an hour ago and I haven't seen you since our talk at lunch. It's straying to worry me. Kamui is standing next to me. Dressed as a... knight. How creative. Myself, I've come as a prince. I don't know why, I just picked the first costume showed to me at the items store.

“Want to dance?” Kamui asks. I shake my head, looking around the ballroom. She glares. “All you've been doing tonight is standing around. What's your problem?”

“I thought you didn't like dancing.” I say off-handedly.

“I don't.”

“Then why ask?”

She growls something but I ignore it.

You must be avoiding me. It's not like you to say something and do another. So that must be it. You're avoiding me. But why? What did I do? You have a quick temper, but you never hold grudges. It's so unlike you.

Shugo and Rena suddenly walk past. They are in matching costumes. Romeo and Juliet. Rena's idea probably. I stop them. Rena smiles at me and blushes. Shugo cocks an eyebrow.

“Oh hey. What's up?” he asks.

“Have you seen Reki?”

“He logged out ages ago. Sent me an email to...” he flushes as dark as his sister. “Oh... sorry. I was meant to tell you.” A nervous laugh.

Rena rolls her eyes and hits him. Scolding him for his forgetfulness and overall stupidity, as she puts it. The girl then turns to me as Shugo scowls, rubbing the back of his head.

“Sorry about him. Yeah Reki logged out. Said he was too tired to come tonight. Didn't he tell you?” she asks.

I shake my head.

“No... he didn't.” You logged out? Without tell me?

Shugo and Rena exchange a glance then look at me. Worry mirrored in their expressions.

“Is... is everything alright?” Shugo asks. He looks so much like Kite that sometimes I can imagine that he's back. (2) “Did you two have a fight?”

I don't answer. We didn't fight. But I've hurt you somehow anyway. I look up and see that the twins are still there. Watching me quietly.

“I'm sorry. I have to go.” I say and without another word, I log out.

Shugo looked at Rena.

“Do you think he'll figure it out?”

She shrugged.

“I hope so. You men can be so stupid sometimes.”

“Hey!”

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I have only been to your apartment twice before. I've never really seen any need to meet you in real life. We see eachother at work everyday, all day. But I regret neglecting you like that now.

I stand outside the front door. There are voices and music coming from inside. The television no doubt. I've been standing here for 5 minutes, trying to sum up the courage to knock, to let you know I'm here. I'm afraid of what you'll say. Of what you'll do when you find out I'm here.

You'll yell at me most likely. Or just pretend like you're fine and you really were just tired. But I know you better than anyone else, save your own family. And-

The door suddenly opens and I realize to my horror that I'd actually knocked without thinking. You stand in the open doorway. Clad in a dark grey sweat shirt and jeans. The jumper has a wide neck and it displays your slender neck and collar bone nicely.

“Balmung. What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be at the ball?”

I tear my eyes away from your neck line and meet your brown eyes. They're shadowed by your dark hair, which falls around your face, much in the same cut as your PC. Though a bit longer.

“You logged out without telling me. I was worried.”

You regard me quietly, then step aside. Holding the door open. I stare at you stupidly and you roll your eyes.

“Come inside. It's cold and I'd rather not talk out in the hallway. Besides, you're not exactly dressed for the weather.” you say, gesturing to my black t-shirt and pants.

I walk into the warm entrance and slip off my shoes. You watch, closing the door and locking it.

“I forgot my coat. I was in kind of a hurry.”

You don't answer and lead me into the sitting room. Flopping down onto an arm chair you point to the couch.

“Sit.”

I obey, sitting down and letting myself sink into the cushions. Very comfortable. You're watching me, waiting for me to explain why I'm here. I thought it would be obvious.

“Why did you log out? Shugo told me you sent him an email, saying you where tired. But I know that's not true. You would've told me yourself if that was the case.”

“I... I was tired. Am tired.” you say.

“Don't lie Reki. It has something to do with our conversation at lunch. You left so quickly and then logged out. I came to ask why. Was it that rumor? Is it upsetting you?”

“No, it's not.”

“Then what's wrong?” I sit foreword, leaning on my knees. “Reki, you can tell me.”

You've lowered your face, looking down at yous hands. I can't see your eyes. I scoot foreword a little more.

“Reki...”

“I can't tell you.” you say suddenly. Fists clenching and un clenching.

“Why not?”

“Because, I don't want you to hate me. I don't want... to loose you. You're my only friend and if... if I tell you...” you cut yourself off. Fists balled so tight, that your knuckles are turning white with the strain.

“I wouldn't hate you and you won't loose me. I promise I won't get mad, just tell me what's bothering you.”

You shake your head and I see a few tears land on your hands. I give a start. You're... crying? Before I know what's happening, I'm off the couch and kneeling in front of you. You bring your hands up to your face and cover it. Preventing me from seeing you. I frown, resting one hand on the left arm rest and the other on one of your knees.

“Reki... please tell me.”

“Would it really be so bad?” you say suddenly, your voice is muffled by your hands. But I still understand you. “If the rumor was true, would it really be so bad? I mean... you're never happy! Not with her. She doesn't even love you!”

Kamui? You're talking about Kamui. Well... no I don't love her and I'm not happy with her. But...

“You deserve to be with someone who can care for you. Someone who actually loves you! Not her. I don't understand why you put up with it! When it only causes you pain. Why be with her when you don't want to!”

“I don't know. She's just there to fill the gap. Not all relationships are about love. I don't love her.”

Your shoulders start to shake and you press your hands to your face with more force. I can see tears leak through your fingers and fall onto your knees and my hand.

“But it's not lust either. It's nothing and yet... and yet you still insist on going out with her!”

I don't know what to say. I've never seen you like this and it's breaking my heart. I didn't know my relationship with Kamui bothered you so much. But I still don't know why it does. Is it because you don't like her? Or is it...

“You... Is the reason you hate it so much because... because you want to be with her?” I ask quietly.

You're sobs pause, but you don't remove your hands, much to my dismay. I'd really like to see your face. Your eyes especially.

“Want to be... with Kamui?” you repeat quietly. “No... no way! What makes you think that? I... I want to be with... with...!” you start to cry again, slim frame shaking with your sobs.

“With? With who?” Suddenly I'm worried. I've never thought about you actually loving someone. But now that I'm forced to, I find myself broken. Jealous, worried, confused. Scared. Scared that I'll loose you to someone else. I need to know who it is. I need to know why you're so upset. “With who?” I urge.

You shake your head again. I reach up and grasp your arms. My hands closing around your slim wrists easily. I pull your hands away from yous tear stained face. You don't struggle, but your sobs increase in force. But not volume, your crying is quiet, you hardly make any noise.

“Reki... who?”

“You!” you explode suddenly, eyes squeezed shut. My grip loosens and you snatch your hands back, covering your face again. “I want to be with you! I love more than anything! I don't understand why you put up with that woman, when you can have someone who can truly make you happy! I don't understand!”

I watch as you double over to press your face and hands against your knees.

“Reki...”

You love me. You love me. Me. It explains everything. The way you've been acting, why you logged out. I said the rumor was nonsense. You obviously didn't agree, because you'd like nothing more than for it to be true. You must think I hate you.

Your still sobbing, whole body shaking. I rise up onto my knees and lean foreword, wrapping my arms around you and pulling your trembling frame to me. Holding you tightly. This does nothing to stop your crying, if anything you cry harder. That's not what I want. I want you to stop. I want you to smile again. I want... you.

I pull your face from your hands and crush my mouth to yours. Your sobs stop. And you freeze up in my arms. I open my mouth and drag my tongue across your lips. They part almost immediately and I'm allowed to explore, taste, claim your mouth. I open my eyes to see yours slide shut and I smile against your mouth.

I pull away, running quick, stabbing kisses along your jaw. As soon as you told me that you loved me, it was like everything fell into place. Everything I've been feeling. Everything I've been wanting, but ignoring. It's all been you. It's always been you. I've just been to foolish to miss it. What I needed, what I craved for, was right in front of me and I chose not to see.

Well not anymore. This is the first time I've seen you cry and I never want to see it again. I never want to see you look so weak, so broken. Never.

I pull you out of the chair and onto my lap, lowering you to the carpet. You've stopped crying, but your body is still trembling. Weak from the emotional drain caused by your sobs. You gaze up at me in confusion. Your eyes are wide, puffy and red rimmed. But I don't think I've ever seen anything more beautiful.

“Balmung...” you start, but I close the distance between us again. Stopping any questions, any doubt you have.

I pull back, but only slightly. Our lips are still touching. Brushing together as I speak.

“I love you Reki. Thank you for opening my eyes.”

You watch me for a moment. Still shocked. Then your arms are around my shoulders and neck and you're pulling me against you. Kissing my lips, cheeks, neck. Everything and I'm more than willing to let you. Because I love you and I plan to make that clear. All night long.

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(1) I know I did. Lol.

(2) I'm going to have to look up Kite's character.

Ending Note: Agh... this is probably the longest thing I have ever written. It just kept going and going... I didn't want to turn it into a chapter fic, because I knew I'd loose sight of the plot and never finish it. It grew late as I wrote and my attention span went to bed, taking my muss with it. So, it's probably crap as. Forgive me. I sware I'll do better next time. Gomen.

And yeah, they're all OOC. Sorry... but it IS my first .hack fic. It's... 2:30 AM... agh...

Review if it pleases you. It'd please me very much. Lol.


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Title: So Beautiful

Disclaimer: I don't own Artemis Fowl. I am mearly borrowing the character's for my wicked plans and plots. I'll give most of them back... I sware! Could I keep Arty though? (Lawyer's tower over her) Ok fine... I'll just take his shirt.
Summery: Artemis asks Butler if he's beautiful, while the guard is dressing for work. From Butlers POV. Fluffy slash. R&R.

Rating: PG:13
Paring: Butler/Artemis
Warnings: SLASH (boy/boy love ppl)

Authoresses Note: I'm having a grand old time trying to force ideas out of my head. Writers block has me in a pretty tight grip. So... a Friend of mine suggested that I write anything that comes to mind. So I will. Slash centered of course. I think of nothing else. Probably too much time on my hands. :P

I got this idea from Darren Hayes - So Beautiful. I love that song.

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"Do you think I'm beautiful?"

He'd asked me that this morning, whilst I was getting dressed.

He was propped up on his elbows in my bed, chin resting in his hands. Looking up at me with those large blue eyes. He was wearing one of my white shirts. Half un buttoned and slipping off his smooth shoulder's. The crisp white fabric pooling around near his elbows.

I could see his reflection in the mirror. And I was surprised to find his gaze, which was normally so closed and guarded, open and curious. Relaxed and innocent. He hadn't looked innocent in years. Too much time sitting in boardrooms and in front of computers. Having his mind corrupted by the criminal world he had grown up in.

"Do I think you're beautiful?" I said this more to myself, than to him. But he answered anyway.

"Yes. Please, be truthful, I don't want you to lie to me about such a thing."

This made me frown. I would never to lie to him. He should know that. It was my duty as his protector, his mentor and his lover to tell him nothing but the truth, even if it caused him pain. That was what he wanted and that was what I gave him.

"I would never lie to you." I say gently, doing up my fly.

He frowns.

"You might. People tend to lie when asked a personal question. You might lie just to make me happy."

"I wouldn't."

This makes him smile. His smiles are always empty and never reach his eyes. They normally mean nothing and are just a show to get people off his back, like his parents or Holly. But the smiles he wears for me are special and secret. Something he keeps for me to show me that he really cares.

He sits up, the shirt slipping further down his arms and looks at me again.

I button up my shirt, black tie hanging around my neck. I leave it un done because I know he likes to do it up. And turn around to face him.

"Why is it so important? I have told you countless times that I do."

He frowns and looks down at his hands.

"I like to hear it and I want to look into your eyes when you do. To see if it's true."

I walk over to him and he gracefully rises to his knees.

I stand silently as he dose up my tie. When he's finished he runs his hands up over my chest and to my neck, wrapping his slim arms around me.

"Tell me I'm beautiful." he whisperers against my lips.

His voice and the the closeness sends shivers down my spin and I crush him too me. He tells me that he feels safe in my embrace. Like nothing in the world could hurt him while I have him, wrapped within my arms.

I like to think that's true. Because I would never let anything hurt him, not while there is still breath in my body. I would rather die than let any harm come to his beautiful form.

I kiss him. Deeply, wetly. Tongues sliding together perfectly and I think nothing in the world could be better than this.

"Tell me I'm beautiful." he says again. The words muffled by the kiss, but they are still there and he's not going to let the subject drop.

I pull away and press my lips to his neck. Momentarily forgetting about work, because this, this is so much better.

"You're beautiful." I say against his smooth skin. And he grips my back tightly. "The stars and moon would have to bow to your beauty."

He pushes me away slightly, so he can look me in the eye. His face is flushed and he's panting. And god he really gets me. I brush my fingers down his soft cheek. And he leans into the touch, though not breaking eye contact.

"Even the most breath-taking sunset couldn't compare to you."

His sapphire blue eyes brighten. And his smile is so happy that I melt.

"No lie?" he asks.

I kiss him again and brush his ebony fringe away from his face.

"Never a lie. You're so beautiful. Always beautiful."

He hugs me. So tightly it actually forces the air from my lungs.

"Mmm... thank you." he says.

"You're welcome Artemis." I reply, hugging him back, not as tightly, because I think his frail form might be crushed under my strength. "I love you."

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End Note: Well that's it. Short I know... sorry... I just can't think of anything at the moment. It's starting to bother me. Well review if you want and tell me what you thought.

There are some mistakes in here. And I apologize for things I missed. But I'm not the greatest in grammar and all that jazz.

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I want... no *really* want Sims 2. I had it. But it wouldn't work on my computer. I forget the reason. Said something about Microsoft not giving the game the thumbs up or something... *grumble* I really don't get it. My new HP game works just fine. But Sims 2 doesn't... not fair. I'll have to look into it.

I'm quite desperte for that game. I have the first Sims game. But it sucks.

Well... I got paid today and I HAD planned to split the money up and save some for next week... but... I kind of... bought clothes and two manga comics and it left me with... hardly any money. I guess that's what happens when you only pay with your card and not cash. *sigh* guess I won't be doing anything this week... I sware I didn't mean to spend that much. Ahhh I'm so stupid! *cries*

A lot of people like to put Geta as the dom with Goku the sub. Which is utter rubbish. Here are some points as to why Vegeta is the obvious Uke.

1) He's much, MUCH smaller than Goku.

2) He's not as strong as Goku, thus Goku can easily dominate him.

3) He's more fem. If you look at them, Vegeta is SO much more fem than Goku.

4) It's WAY cuter.

There. :) That's all I can think of for now. Vegeta is Uke, which is the way it's meant to be.

... The following people are Uke.

Artemis Fowl, Draco Malfoy, Remus Lupin, Yukito from CCS, Fai D Flowright from Tsubasa, Vegeta and Shuichi Shindou (well duh)

Artemis Fowl is my favorite set of books. I adore Arty SO much. And when I heard that there was going to be a movie on the first book I was so excited. But now... the movie is no where to be seen. Release dats keep being cancled. The actor who was playing Artemis is now too old to play the genius because of the long pause in filming.

What I'd like to know is when this so called 'movie' is going to come out? I really wanna see it. I mean... if they can make that stupid movie "The Adventures of Shark Boy and Lava Girl." they can make a movie on one of the best selling childrens books. Can't they? *sigh*

I just hope they get someone good to play Artemis. They better not stuff him up.

Now. I LOVE Harry Potter. I probably love it too much, but whatever. I of course have all 6 books and I love five of them. The sixth book however. Was crap. If I may be so bold.

The main reason I dis like this one so much was because of al the shitty romance in it. I mean... sure Harry is sixteen and he could have a gf. But that doesn't MEAN he NEEDS to get one. And GINNY!?! What the hell is wrong with JK. I'd much rather Harry be with Hermione. Ginny. She is a stuck up, cocky, slutty little tart who needs to be killed. In my opinion.

I hate her. She really pisses me off. She is such a typical girl character. Pretty. Popular with boys. Tough. Smart (not). And a smart ass.

But I can skip over the romance rubbish with Harry and the bitch Ginny. But. This... Remus/Tonks ship is down right stupid. Everyone KNOWS Remus belongs with Sirius. Tonks, now... she's alright. She's normally funny and cool. But she sucked ass in HBP. Moping about, acting all self absorbed. The pairing its self is dumb. They are no good for eachother and I don't know why JK even thinks they'd make a good couple. Because they DON'T.

Remus is my favorite character and I don't want to skip over the sappy romance shit with him and Tonks. Because I know that's when we'll get to see him. And that's not fair. No way.

There was no action in HBP. Nothing of vage interest. And I had to force myself to finish it. Every book up until HBP was a master piece. Non stop action, no romance (If you don't count Harry crushing after Cho) brilliant story lines. But this one... it was like a very well written fanfiction. Like a soup opera on paper.

The only things I like in there was finding out who bit Remus. And... some stuff with Draco. (I KNEW he was good. KNEW IT!!!)

I'm having mixed feelings about the 7th and final HP book... it will be good if Ginny does the smart thing and doesn't go with Harry on his search for those... things. (Don't know how to spell it). If she did go, there would be nothing but pathetic romance between her and Harry. (Who should be with Draco)

And the whole Remus/Tonks thing. I hate it. Hate it so much!!! The romance killed the book. And I wish there isn't going to any of it in the 7th.

Cannon... what's it good for? Nothing that's what.

My first Live Journal! ^^ Not very exciting. But I'm bored and need some place to rant. And here seems like a good enough place. So anyway. Today I went with my mum to IKEA, a furniture store. We got lost twice. Took us an hour to get there. (When I finally found a map) and wouldn't you know it? The place was packed. I mean REALLY packed. There where cars parked up on the gardens. On the little grass islands in the car park. Traffic everywhere. Quite annoying.

The inside was just as bad as the outside. People everywhere. I even saw a clown. Anyway... long story short. I got a new shelf and a lamp. We got lost inside the store (Which is HUGE, like it's own mall) and had to somehow put the boxed up shelf in the back of our car. Trying not to scratch the leather.

So yeah... that's all that happened to me today. ^^

Oh and before I leave. I have this to say... Tonks and Ginny suck. They must be silenced. HP slash forever!!!!